The 'irony' of it.

I'm at home sitting on my bed cross legged listening to Omarion's 'Icebox' track. I was watching Youtube videos of George Sampson (The young streetdancer who recently won 'Britain's got talent') when I saw a clip of him dancing in a street in somewhere like Manchester with that particular song in the background.

I'm addicted to it now. I love R'N'B. The song is fantastic.

I have a cold. I think I've sneezed almost ten times since I woke up a few hours ago and my throat is tickly as well at the roof of my mouth. The irony of it all is (if it is irony) that I forgot to schedule my hours for this week so I have no choice but to stay home for the week (which is annoying, as I do need the money very desperately now) and at the same time this cold has developed. I guess that is a good thing though. This time out can be the time where I can get over this stupid virus. I'd rather work or study then have a cold. I think anyone would.

You'll be happy to know that I am perfectly fine now, in regards to my emotional state. The girl I liked so much, I have got over. My feelings are generally content now. I don't wake up in the morning yearning for someone being next to me. In fact if I be truelly honest with myself I do prefer it this way. I'm content and I can think clearly now. There's not a single person that I'm constantly thinking of. There is not any particular situation I am concerned off which involves a girl that I like in any way. Off course I do wish for that special someone at times, but at the moment I believe I am o.k.

I have to think about my career. This is one thing that is constantly on my mind all the time. I'm considering going for some kind of I.T internship. I once phoned up for one of those and I was accepted in doing it, but I was living down south at the time and I got asked to go to London for it. Now that I am in London I can possibly consider it. I just need more money and I am not making enough here however I really do like the atmosphere at this job a lot. The people are great and hospitable. There are always new entrants literally every week that I can build friendship's with. It's nice.

We shall see, but I really wish I had a solid plan. It's starting to get to me now. I really want to know what to do. A lot of people are saying 'oh Nada, you are only twenty two years old, your young!'. Understandable, but next year I will be twenty three, then twenty four, then twenty five then before I know it I am thirty five and not got anywhere. I need to get somewhere in life. I want to get somewhere in life where I am proud of my efforts.

Well for now, I shall do some research and then start making solid decisions.